About midday I decided I wanted to play GTA, to see if Mercenary Man was online. So that would be motivation and curiosity I think. I became restless fairly quickly though, and switched to watching Netflix again.
Right after I switched Mercenary Man sent me a message saying he'd just joined my game when I left it. So I went back in, but he wasn't there. This resulted in a little frustration, as I couldn't make myself feel interested enough in GTA to play on my own.
He appeared not long later though, so I was happy, and we had fun. I always feel quite insecure talking to him. I suppose it's the nearest I have to social interaction, so that's probably why.
I started feeling queasy after a while (slow frame rate can do this to me, even if I can't tell it's slow), so I logged off intending to take a nap. I got annoyed at myself because napping didn't happen.
I've not felt great since, which has manifested in me not enjoying my kitten time this evening. I feel restless and nauseated.
But I can definitely identify that I'm really annoyed this evening. Blob admitted to me that he's still lying to me so the flipping time. Usually about financial matters. It annoys me because he isn't trusting me to help him sort certain things out; and because his finances directly affect my life and what I can and cannot do. Aaaaargh!
So, today I've identified;
- curiosity
- restlessness
- frustration
- happy
- enjoyment
- insecurity
- annoyance
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