Les Sentiments d'Aujourd'hui

I'm not altogether better from yesterday's... whatever that was. My emotions are still kind of distant. I'm kind of comfortable that way. That's probably the whole point that Therapist Fella is getting at.

Let's see...

Blood test at a certain time this morning. Knowing I already felt unwell. Anxiety.

Cuddling Dotty, Ruthie, Mollie, and kinda Bobby. Dotty still doesn't trust people, which makes me feel sad, and slightly frustrated as I don't know how to help her. Ruthie is clearly feeling much happier being in the main cat block, which makes me feel happy, pleased, and loving towards her. Mollie is more interested in escaping the pen than genuinely having attention, which annoyed me. Bobby bit me, which shocked me and left me feeling chastised.

Slept most of the afternoon. Watched Friends a bit. My emotions to up and down a lot watching it because things in it reminds me of the failures in my life a lot. I've nearly finished binge watching it though, so and starting to feel impatient, yet also anxious as I don't know what I'll do with my time when I'm done watching it.

Had a lovely cuddle with Oni, which always makes me feel loving. It should make me happy, but at the moment it actually makes me anxious because he's not as cuddly as usual, which makes me worried as to why.

This evening, didn't like the pizza (cheeseless, obviously) that Blob made, so I felt guilty. And now I'm just tired.

So that's...

- anxious

- sad

- frustration

- happy

- please

- loving

- annoyed

- shocked

- chastised

- impatient

- worried

- guilty

Bleurgh. The more I'm doing this, the more I'm noticing that emotions are changing all the flipping time. It's exhausting!